I am so thankful today. I'm not really even sure about what. I feel really happy to be sitting right where I'm at. More on yesterdays church experience:
I found some way to articulate it late yesterday--there are people that are alone. That are full of hopes and dreams and plans, desires, sins, shame, life. And they long to be part of something bigger than themselves. I know, I'm one of them. So they find their way into this place that says they wil welcome them, open arms to them, love them. To church. And then, because everyone there is there for the same reason, because we are all weak, and the weak go where they think they will be made strong, they are congregated together with no rock, no commonality see, other than this faith that is weak to begin with. And if they are all weak, and there is no strength (save the Lord's) how will be life each other up?
What if it looked more like this--we go where we find strength. We go to nature, we go to clubs, we go to the world where God is inevitably. We are after all made in His image. There is no where we can go without him. Whether those around us have faith or not, we are built up in the things that are common, and our souls are nourished so our faith can be nourished.
I don't know how sound this is. But I know that is where I want to be. I don't want to live my life in a ghost land of people who want to love but can't or don't know how. I want to live in a land who are learning and failing and learning again. And I don't find that in church. Some do. Great, let's be friends. Maybe we can learn something. Maybe we can love each other.